Why do we sometimes start our days with such optimism and others as if the day is bad before it starts? We so quickly forget that “His mercies are NEW every morning.” Today started less optimistic which is to be expected when I was so optimistic last night.
It is the end of the second marking period, which means a lot of grading to do. Got to work today at 7:30 am for my wonderful bus duty (ya know watch those kids getting off the bus — I did a bad job at it today too — poor Bernard’s’ bus aid had to come knock on the door because I was busy grading that I didn’t see him sitting out there – oops!) I have a Bible class of ninth grade students and each marking period they have to do 3 to 4 “Independent Studies.” Many times over the years I have been very encouraged reading a students paper and that is usually when I can see that they really learned something about themselves and their walk with the Lord through the assignment. I found myself at one point tearing up at one students paper (remind you I was not very “optimistic” this morning) just at how much effort she put into it and you can tell she was doing the study for herself and not for me. It was encouraging to see at a pretty young age how much she was seeking the Lord.
Then I get near the end of grading these papers and I could see how another student was truly learning and basically it was like a written out prayer that the Lord will help him to consider his words that he speaks because every word we speak is accounted for.
Matt 12:36 But I tell you that men will have to give account on the day of judgment for every careless word they have spoken.
He writes “Then on judgement day you will have to answer for every single word that came out of your mouth. Words are so powerful they affect everything that surrounds you. Us sinful people forget that every word counts.”
This students’ words just set me back and convicted me because I do forget this!! He was just so sincere and honest.
He continued by saying “After doing this study I was shocked and ashamed, because I thought they didn’t count, and now I want to free myself.”
What do you want to free yourself from? This 9th grade boy wants to free himself from being irresponsible with his words. I want to free myself from MYSELF. From my selfish desires and thoughts, I want to give more, I want to help people more, I want my “self” out of the way so that I can be His hand extended. I do not want an idle words to come out of my mouth either. These are prayers of mine.
Well then he surprises me by saying:
Thank you Sister Jessica, now I have one less obstacle on my road with Jesus! God Bless. ~
Wow! Who I am to receive such thanks??!! It is good to remember these moments when you get to see that you are being used and that you have reached someone. It was the Word of God that reached this student, not me, but I was able to be an instrument and directing him.
After all of that, I was convicted for not being so optimistic this morning and to pick up my head so that I could fight the GOOD FIGHT of faith.
There are so many prayers I want answered!!!!!!!!!! The Lord has promised me that I will see Salvation and I will receive the blessing in the Valley of Berachah (2 Chronicles 20: 24-26* see below) and it will be MORE THAN I expected.
So I will continue to pray and I will continue to do all I can to some how help all that are in my life!!
*24 When the men of Judah came to the place that overlooks the desert and looked toward the vast army, they saw only dead bodies lying on the ground; no one had escaped. 25 So Jehoshaphat and his men went to carry off their plunder, and they found among them a great amount of equipment and clothing and also articles of value—more than they could take away. There was so much plunder that it took three days to collect it. 26 On the fourth day they assembled in the Valley of Berakah, where they praised the LORD. This is why it is called the Valley of Berakah to this day.
** Berakah means praise and blessing!!