I went to bed last night thinking how “at rest” I was and “at peace.” It was a good day and I know blessed of the Lord. Yes it was Valentines Day and yes I am single — but I could care less (most of the time 
). I was excited to go cook dinner for my Dad and brothers and to give them their Valentines gifts (sugar cookies!!) It was fun and they loved it …. and well so did I. (Oh and SU finally won so that helped with too.)
Then the morning came and I was anxious! How could I be anxious? I reminded myself of the verse “Fret not!” and “Be anxious for nothing!” and the Lord reminds me “Trust in me!” –”Have Faith!”
I know part of the reason why I was anxious this morning and it stems from some disappointments. I have had a lot of disappointments in my life – we all have – why does it never get easier? I am also so bad at having high expectations. I have been working on it and I am slowly getting better. Want to know why I don’t find Christmas that exciting anymore? I used to set such high expectations for it and I kept getting let down. Now when the day comes I had little expectations and then I enjoy the day so much more!
The important thing that I have learned is where to place my hope, trust and expectations! That is in the Lord! This life is going to disappoint but the Lord is not!
Then I get into work and usually I take a moment to read Streams in the Desert and I opened it up and it says “Fret not thyself” (Psalm 37:1) – Uh oh — Now I am in trouble. A few quotes from it:
“Fret not thyself.” Do not get unduly heated! Keep cool! Even in a good cause, fretfulness is not a wise help-meet
In fretfulness, a little bit of grit gets into the bearings–some slight disappointment, some ingratitude, some discourtesy–and the smooth working of the life is checked.
Dear restless heart, be still; don’t fret and worry so;
God has a thousand ways His love and help to show;
Just trust, and trust, and trust, until His will you know.Dear restless heart, be still, for peace is God’s own smile,
His love can every wrong and sorrow reconcile;
Just love, and love, and love, and calmly wait awhile.Dear restless heart, be brave; don’t moan and sorrow so,
He hath a meaning kind in chilly winds that blow;
Just hope, and hope, and hope, until you braver grow.
I also read David Wilkersons email and it was about Faith and not fearing. I was getting it from every side this morning.
Oh beloved, God rejoices in our faith. He awaits to give us hope and open our eyes to his loving care. The decision is ours to make—even this moment. It is within our power to choose to trust God in our present and future trials. It is either the wilderness of despair or the smile of the Lord and an open heaven.
God help us all to hold fast our faith. Do not give up.
“Smile of the Lord” and “..for peace is God’s own smile” —-I love how they both mentioned “smiling” and of the Lord! He is smiling at you and He wants you and me to remember –>> Don’t fret — Don’t fear — Have Faith — Trust Him — Hope in Him– Expect from Him!!! Don’t forget His smile!!!!!!
